Well I have'nt blogged in a little while but I have been writing journal entries. For some reason i'm having a hard time copying them onto hear, but I can copy stuff from here and put it on my word documents easily. I think i'm just a tchenology bafoon. So here's a recap from Friday and Saturday.
On thrusday night, i became worried about a health issue I thought i might have. Whenever something seems off about my health, I always look up the symptoms online to see what it could possibly and what I might possibly have to do to take care of it. Just to be somewhat prepared when I talk to my doctor, or to know if i should even contact my doctor. So when I looked up my symptoms online, it made it sound pretty severe and said that I would probably have to go to the hospital and stay there till it was over. So I planned on calling my doctor on friday and made preparations with Michael incase I might have to go to the hospital. Then I called my doctors office and they said that it was most likely not what i was thinking it was and in fact something else and to call after the weekend if this issue persisted but that it would probably be gone. Later in the day I met up with michael for lunch and he told me that his mom had been texting him to find out what was going on wiht me and all. I thought it was really sweet that she texted him and not me because I was so stressed out. I texted her and told her everything that happened.
Later that day I went over to target to get some things that we needed and use our target gift cards. I also stopped by safeway to get some groceries. I wanted to make dinner for michael and just do something special. So got stuff for fajitas, and a rose for him. When I got home Cheryl was home early. She told me that she took the rest of the day off of work just in case I might need her. This blessed me so much. I mean I love Cheryl so much and she is so kinda and generous, but this particular act really made me feel like I had a mom away from my mom in califonia. Cuz only moms would take time off of work to stay home in case you needed anything. It meant so much to me. I didn't know that she was coming home early while i was running errands so I felt bad that I came home kind of late with out letting her know. Well I made Michael dinner and lit some candles and Nixon stayed with Grammy. Afterwards he came upstairs and we we watched tv and went to bed.
At night I have been trying to nurse him. He falls asleep while nursing so I also have a bottle presant. When he woke up, he was apparently starving. He began sucking so fast. Then he got tired, I tried him on the other side, and then gave him the bottle. As he drank the bottle I just stroked his head and prayed with him (eventhough I know he doesn't really know what I'm saying) We prayed for all of his body parts, we prayed for his future, we prayed for our family, for the nation, we gave thanks for different things. It was such a sweet time. I loved it so much. I decided I wanted to do that every night.
Saturday morning came and Michael got up early and was taking care of him. We stayed around the house all day and went in the main house to see tracy since he was back from his long trip. apparently his cousin gave us some gifts so we opened those, and just hung out there. We ate dinner there too.
Then Michael and I left Nixon with the Grandparents and went to the movies. We went to go see new moon because I had been asking Michael if he would go with me again. I'm a little obsessed with those movies. I realized I love movies based on make believe things and usually based on books. Because it's fun to see the different colors and different environments hollywood makes and fun to envision what somehting that doesn't exhist would be like. So we went to the movies and it was packed. We thought that our movie would be really empty because it's been out for a while and a lot of new movies are out. But our theater was pretty full. One thing that was a bummer though, was a woman had her baby in there. And it was crying a lot. I have a new sense of patience for crying babies, but I also decided that night, that if you have to take a baby into a theater, that's fine. But if the baby is crying, you have to take it out, because it's not fair to the other people in the theater to listen to your baby crying. It might now bother you because you love your little one so much, but for other's that don't know how precious your baby is, it can just be offensive and annoying. So I told Michael, i really understand her taking her baby in. Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do. But you can't be so selfish that you watching a movie while your baby is crying and ruining the movie for the rest of the people becomes more important the the good for the majority. I just don't understand why she didn't take him outside to of the room just to sooth him and bring him back or give him a pacifier.
This morning, I woke up to Michael wiht the baby again. I missed church last week because the night before had been horrible. Last night wasn't too bad, in fact I was up feed Nixon around 7 thinking michael will be up probably around 730 to wake me back up. Well Michael didn't know how much i wanted to go to church since I missed last week, so he let me sleep. I ended up waking up at around 1045 totally bummed because not only did i miss the first service of church but I also missed the second because it was going to start in 15 minutes. So i just told him what happened and that I want to go to church next week for sure. I know i could have set my alarm but michael is usually my alarm on sundays. O well.
The rest of the day we kind of lounged around the house on the couches watching football and enjoying our family time. It was really sweet. Definately a day of rest. I really loved it. I mean I'm sad I missed the teaching at church today but the time with Nixon and Michael was so wonderful, that I couldn't really regret anything. Later Michael and I took Nixon on a 3 mile walk around this place called bald hill. Its actually the place we walked the day before Nixon was born. I love walking with michael because sometimes when you just lounge around the house, the tv is going or something is distracting, so i've found I get a lot of time to talk with michael when we go on walks and drive long distances, which is why I push for both a lot. We had a good talk about a lot of things, while I sported a bottle in my armpit under my coat to warm it up (i felt a little rediculous.)
Now we are home, and i'm blogging before I go to work.
Cute things about Nixon...
Today we checked his measurements and he's 21 inches, which means he's grown 2inches, which is pretty darn cute.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
1/1/10
Well it's officially the New Year. It might have been one of the most tiressome and saddest starts to the new year for me. I woke up around 8 because my brother in-law and father in-law were leaving to drive to Illinois so that my brother in-law could move there and do a graduate assistant position. I didn't think I would be as sad as I found that I was. Adam, isn't around too much. I see him maybe about once a week on a random week night. But there's something I love about that boy. He's this big musle boy who looks pretty intimidating when you meet him. His humor is sarcastic, he likes to pick on people all in good fun. But throughout my pregnancy and the birth of little Nixon, I have seen this soft side of him that I had heard about through Michael and caught tiny glimses of throughout being part of this family, but never experienced in the full entent till now. I have really enjoyed the playful banter with Adam whenever I would see him, and the funny stories he would tell.
But I have especially loved seeing him with Nixon. I remember the first time he came home when Nixon was home. We were all around the dinner table, eating, while Nixon was in his car seat in a chair. Most people who were around Nixon since he was home would just say, "can I see him." But when Adam came home he said, "Can I hold him?" which caught me off guard a bit and really blessed me. So i said sure. and when I saw how gentle this big man was with this tiny little baby, it filled my heart with so much joy. I saw him take little Nixon over to the couch and just stare at him. At times it even looked like he was going to kiss him. It was absolutely adorable. And its this way anytime Adam holds him. I have offered Adam to hold Nixon a lot just because I love watching this happen. Plus one thing that I was really blessed by with Adam, was when he would hold Nixon, he always offered to me if i wanted to hold him. And though it sounds weird, it always meant so much to me because there were quite a few days where I only got to hold him late at night because when we were with people, I would want them to hold him and I think they would just assume that I had a lot of him, even though I really didn't. I always answered no to Adam, but the fact that some one was noticing and caring of me with my baby meant so much to me.
So Adam leaving was really sad to me. Plus Adam is kinda a free ranger. He does good on his own, so I know that wiht him being gone, he probably wont visit much, and it's pretty much the beginning of his independence. I don't expect him to ever move back to Oregon. He will probably always be living somewhere distant and that's a littl esad to me.
Plus this day was the day my parents were leaving. Boy was that emotional. It was hard to see my parents tearing up holding Nixon. To see his little body all rolled up on them, knowing that the next time they see him and hold him, he will probably be a big chubby baby. The wont be able to experince any more of this tiny infant Nixon. And knowing that just breaks my heart. We all cried and they took off. After they left, I went to bed with Nixon and just cried. Then I fell asleep. Then I woke up and cried some more, and went back to sleep. That was pretty much my day till Michael came home. Then he cheered me up and we ate left over party snacks and watched the Hangover. Which the movie itself is pretty crude and kind of vulgar, but funny at the same time so it took my mind off of the emotional day.
But that night was a doosey. I couldn't go to bed because I had had a soda right before the end of the movie. I was tired and emotional still. All of the sudden I remembered that Nixon showed us today that he pretty much can't fit into his preemie clothes anymore. Instead of being excited for my little growing man, I just started to freak out in my head that my little baby was growing to fast. I ran into his room, in tears of course, and grabbed the newborn outfit that he was wearing this day, and grabbed a preemie outfit to see if there was a big difference in size. I was scared that there would be and I would realized that he grew like an inch in the last week. But after comparing them I realized the size wasn't a big difference at all. So I felt better. But this night, whenever he woke me, I was just delighted to be with him. Usually, he can test my patience a little because of my lack of sleep but I just wanted to take everything in tonight. So just laughed at him, smelt him, kissed him, held him close, and rubbed him. It was really a very sweet night.
But I have especially loved seeing him with Nixon. I remember the first time he came home when Nixon was home. We were all around the dinner table, eating, while Nixon was in his car seat in a chair. Most people who were around Nixon since he was home would just say, "can I see him." But when Adam came home he said, "Can I hold him?" which caught me off guard a bit and really blessed me. So i said sure. and when I saw how gentle this big man was with this tiny little baby, it filled my heart with so much joy. I saw him take little Nixon over to the couch and just stare at him. At times it even looked like he was going to kiss him. It was absolutely adorable. And its this way anytime Adam holds him. I have offered Adam to hold Nixon a lot just because I love watching this happen. Plus one thing that I was really blessed by with Adam, was when he would hold Nixon, he always offered to me if i wanted to hold him. And though it sounds weird, it always meant so much to me because there were quite a few days where I only got to hold him late at night because when we were with people, I would want them to hold him and I think they would just assume that I had a lot of him, even though I really didn't. I always answered no to Adam, but the fact that some one was noticing and caring of me with my baby meant so much to me.
So Adam leaving was really sad to me. Plus Adam is kinda a free ranger. He does good on his own, so I know that wiht him being gone, he probably wont visit much, and it's pretty much the beginning of his independence. I don't expect him to ever move back to Oregon. He will probably always be living somewhere distant and that's a littl esad to me.
Plus this day was the day my parents were leaving. Boy was that emotional. It was hard to see my parents tearing up holding Nixon. To see his little body all rolled up on them, knowing that the next time they see him and hold him, he will probably be a big chubby baby. The wont be able to experince any more of this tiny infant Nixon. And knowing that just breaks my heart. We all cried and they took off. After they left, I went to bed with Nixon and just cried. Then I fell asleep. Then I woke up and cried some more, and went back to sleep. That was pretty much my day till Michael came home. Then he cheered me up and we ate left over party snacks and watched the Hangover. Which the movie itself is pretty crude and kind of vulgar, but funny at the same time so it took my mind off of the emotional day.
But that night was a doosey. I couldn't go to bed because I had had a soda right before the end of the movie. I was tired and emotional still. All of the sudden I remembered that Nixon showed us today that he pretty much can't fit into his preemie clothes anymore. Instead of being excited for my little growing man, I just started to freak out in my head that my little baby was growing to fast. I ran into his room, in tears of course, and grabbed the newborn outfit that he was wearing this day, and grabbed a preemie outfit to see if there was a big difference in size. I was scared that there would be and I would realized that he grew like an inch in the last week. But after comparing them I realized the size wasn't a big difference at all. So I felt better. But this night, whenever he woke me, I was just delighted to be with him. Usually, he can test my patience a little because of my lack of sleep but I just wanted to take everything in tonight. So just laughed at him, smelt him, kissed him, held him close, and rubbed him. It was really a very sweet night.
12-31-09
So I have started a blog/journal to remember all the sweet things in my life. I now how a precious little baby, who looks older every day so i want to capture every moment I can, thus my blog.
Yesterday was New Years eve. It was the last full day that my parents would be here in Oregon with my little family. I woke up late like I always do with my new little munchkin. My parents had been up for a while with Nixon, my son, while Michael, my husband, was at work. We decided to go to Walmart. For those who don't live in or near Corvallis, the closest Walmart is about 45 minutes away. So taking a trip to walmart, is something you kind of make a day of. My parents are from California. Oregon has no sales tax and my parents wanted to buy a Wii. So they wanted to buy it up here and save the extra tax money. We went out to Lebenon and I bought some party snack food for New Years.
We planned on just staying home with my in-laws and just diong a low key new years thing. We were going to have party snacks, play games, and maybe watch a movie. Since my parents were here from out of town and we have a new baby, I didn't really want to go anywhere, to anyone's party. It was a really little party. It was so relaxing and I enjoyed myself. I thought it was the perfect New Years. It was low key and I spent it with those whom I love.
The clock said we had about 2 minutes before the ball fell, which is my favorite part, but we turned the TV on just in case. It turns out that the clock was a little behind and we turned the TV on right after the ball fell. But my mom said, look we have 5 seconds till the clock says twelve, we'll count down. So we did our own count down and it was suprisingly just as good to me. I really enjoyed myself, but it was bittersweet because I knew when I went to sleep, that i would be waking up to the day that my parents were leaving and my brother in law would be moving away. So i stayed up late with Nixon while everyone went to sleep. I had a really sweet little mother daughter time. Plus i had had a lot of soda, so i wasn't really tired. It was a good day. Good New Years Eve.
Yesterday was New Years eve. It was the last full day that my parents would be here in Oregon with my little family. I woke up late like I always do with my new little munchkin. My parents had been up for a while with Nixon, my son, while Michael, my husband, was at work. We decided to go to Walmart. For those who don't live in or near Corvallis, the closest Walmart is about 45 minutes away. So taking a trip to walmart, is something you kind of make a day of. My parents are from California. Oregon has no sales tax and my parents wanted to buy a Wii. So they wanted to buy it up here and save the extra tax money. We went out to Lebenon and I bought some party snack food for New Years.
We planned on just staying home with my in-laws and just diong a low key new years thing. We were going to have party snacks, play games, and maybe watch a movie. Since my parents were here from out of town and we have a new baby, I didn't really want to go anywhere, to anyone's party. It was a really little party. It was so relaxing and I enjoyed myself. I thought it was the perfect New Years. It was low key and I spent it with those whom I love.
The clock said we had about 2 minutes before the ball fell, which is my favorite part, but we turned the TV on just in case. It turns out that the clock was a little behind and we turned the TV on right after the ball fell. But my mom said, look we have 5 seconds till the clock says twelve, we'll count down. So we did our own count down and it was suprisingly just as good to me. I really enjoyed myself, but it was bittersweet because I knew when I went to sleep, that i would be waking up to the day that my parents were leaving and my brother in law would be moving away. So i stayed up late with Nixon while everyone went to sleep. I had a really sweet little mother daughter time. Plus i had had a lot of soda, so i wasn't really tired. It was a good day. Good New Years Eve.
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